The Living Tombstone - It's Been So Long lyrics

[Verse 1] I dunno what I was thinking Leaving my child behind Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind With all this anger, guilt and sadness Coming to haunt me forever I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river Is this revenge I am seeking Or seeking someone to avenge me Stuck in my own paradox I wanna set myself free Maybe I should chase and find Before they'll try to stop it It won't be long before I'll become a puppet [Chorus] It's been so long Since I last have seen my son Lost to this monster To the man behind the slaughter Since you've been gone I've been singing this stupid song So I could ponder The sanity of your mother [Verse 2] I wish I lived in the present With the gift of my past mistakes But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes Your sweet little eyes, your little smile Is all I remember Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper Justification is k**ing me But k**ing isn't justified What happened to my son, I'm terrified It lingers in my mind and the thought keeps getting bigger I'm sorry my sweet baby, I wish I've been there [Chorus] It's been so long Since I last have seen my son Lost to this monster To the man behind the slaughter Since you've been gone I've been singing this stupid song So I could ponder The sanity of your mother