The ILLZ - Behold! The Nightmare lyrics

[Verse 1] My head to the sky Looking at head to pray to him But I ain't got nothing to say to him It's crazy When nothing in life can hold meaning When you question Everything you believe in When your soul it starts bleeding And everyday you sink to depression For no reason You try to ask for help cause you're alone But who to call Everyone's got problems of their own They don't understand Sometimes I stare in the mirror Wonder who I am Sometimes I wish I could come up with some sort of plan To take me out of all this misery I try to lie but deep inside this sh** is k**ing me Is anybody here feeling me I can't describe what the love for doe did to me It came in made my dreams just disappear At at a loss made my mind stop thinking clear They tell me just get a career Get a good paying job you can keep a couple years Cause its all about the money just forget what you believe Forget about your wants you should just get a degree I feel you Jay I know you're looking out for me But being honest though that school sh** ain't for me I took the hard road And that's never the nicest They took D I realized how short this life is At his wake like I've never seen anything like this I came across his father and I swear he looked lifeless But still through the tears he cracked a smile But his eyes screamed pain cause they took his only child And seeing his father through these times I realized how much I miss mine I try to hide it front like I feel fine So to ignore the pain I just grind Immerse myself in every distraction So I can numb the pain and stop my body from crashing Cause everybody's telling me you gotta take action In a year everything changed I'm lacking the pa**ion What the f** I'm gonna tell them when they're right It's always in my mind I think about it every night I'm not into this rap sh** man I don't even write For a moment I was ready just to live a normal life Damn My mind's on a whole other level How you win if surrounded by the devil Facing damnation, temptation Staring straight at the heavens but can't face him So now its just harder to choose I ain't eager to win, not ready to lose Make me never wanna touch this But without it yo I swear I can't function [Music fades]