The Blanks - Lodger lyrics

And so I tried my best to defend Stop waiting, I won't believe again Takes a minute to trust your hands again Stop waiting, I won't believe again If and when I close my eyes it's like it's It's not dark, it's a blank sunrise A minute to split this head to distend With force I will not try it but My dreams tell me I'm infinite But that don't work, I'm sure No second guessing the meaning of it Yeah, that don't work, I'm sure Tape my back down if I can escape Stop waiting, I won't believe again Just hold my breath now to spite my face Of course I will not try it but My dreams tell me I'm infinite But that don't work, I'm sure No second guessing the meaning of it But that don't work and I'm sure I'll be alone Yeah, that don't work and I'm sure I'll be alone Oh, the girl from Ipanema goes walking Down the street the way that she's talking I'm not sure She's trying hoping ways that she's waiting I'm not trying, I'm hesitating I'm so far from sure There's something lodged in the back of my mind today And uh, I think it might be alive There's something lodged in the back of my mind today And uh, I think it might be alive It'd be too easy but I can't pretend Stop waiting, I won't believe again No contemplation when my arms extend Stop waiting, I won't believe again If and when I close my eyes it's like it's Not dark, it's a blank sunrise A minute to split this head to distend With force I will not try it but My dreams tell me I'm infinite But that don't work, I'm sure No second guessing the meaning of it But that don't work and I'm sure I'll be alone Yeah, that don't work and I'm sure I'll be alone Oh, the girl from Ipanema goes walking Down the street the way that she's talking I'm not sure She's trying hoping ways that she's waiting I'm not trying, I'm hesitating I'm so far from sure Something lodged in the back of my mind today And uh, I think it might be alive There's something lodged in the back of my mind today And uh, I think it might be alive But I'm not trying to take my own life I've got meaningless questions to ask myself I know there's no good in rehabilitation I've sought meaning Still I know the code, I wrote it down Infinite lives come gun me down Up, up, down, down, select, start