That Very Time I Saw - Please Excuse lyrics

So here we are. we spend a lot time holding hands. and after all, i hoped you might just understand. you do not seem to know me. i guess i changed a lot this time. and it is my fault. so i write excuses in a rhyme. when you are here you seem far away and although i know i just can not stay. what is left to say? i searched my mind. i am sorry is all i find. i do not dare it. you know i never would speak it out. i can not bare it. i am sure you never really had a doubt. come on, please find me here. will you find me here?