Terrence, the Truth - Find Mine (Part One) lyrics

Verse 1 [Terrence, the Truth] I just want Shelby to know three words and those words are I love you And that I wrote this early in the morning started around late one early two And I wanna beat this kids face But I don't wanna be too harsh but it's Tyler Pace I lost myself I talk to people I'm trying to find me Matter of fact who was I in the first place did I even really have a clue? Haven't you heard of my relationship issues? oh you never knew? That's great let's change the subject I don't want to get into detail I'll state for the record that when it comes to the both of us, one of us have to fail Like our relationship did, even though I knew it wouldn't last cause we're kids I mean the purpose in life is not to find peace but to realize anything Who ever knew that one day I'd be the kid who turned into a king Who knew I'd have the ability to combine words to a rhythm and watch my sister sing I never imagined that I'd be an inspiration to these kids growing up in Paragould, Arkansas Hopefully, they don't have to experience what some of us older people have saw Have witnessed growing up and not just in Paragould but could be Pocahontas or Jonesboro It's crazy when you think about it cause someone's being born now but someone else is dying tomorrow Are there times you just want to crawl in a ball and cry your heart out? Where you start to wonder why and begin to cry but you don't really know what about? I have and I do it almost every other month is that bad? But my reason is that I never appreciated what I really had I was outside a lot today and I got ketchup on my shorts Then I had to run a football field and up and down a basketball court When finished I'm sweating up a storm looking like Niagara Falls But when I'm walking people shove me into lockers and trip me down the halls What did I ever do to deserve the punishment given to me by society Is it because I'm rapping and society doesn't like me spitting truthfully Had to make some kind of actual vocal song so I can get these wanna be's off my back Wanting to rip my tracks to win plaques and give no credit to the kid that's black That wrote the song for them but most people never give blacks any kind of credit I never help very many people cause I know in the long run I'm gonna regret it But not all people are bad there's all kinds of people out there in the world There's the people trying to live, rich people, and my dream girl I don't have a lot of entertain words and I state I'm not the best but I'm not the worst rapper But I want to be the one you help progress and make better Until that time, I'm gonna make the most out of life and I'm gonna live it with pride Cause I won't be here forever but while I am, I'm not gonna abandon the stride I put myself on cause I'm never getting off it's gonna go throughout my whole entire present Like life except life's a different game you just gotta learn it People these days wanna try to call me and my friends f*ggots But legs have been used more then Childish Gambino's jackets Who wants to be a rapper it's stupid happening to do this all the time I'm not complaining cause I really love to rhyme so I use every bit of talent Wait, what talent? I'm still searching desperately trying to find mine