Terraform - The Golden Ratio lyrics

Where have I been this long? I must have been asleep for some time now I can't remember the last time that I felt the blood rushing fast through my veins I'm in need of something I'm in need of something real Something here I can hold onto Something with some substance Give me a sense of purpose and reason This is not how I want to use my time here; Spent in a system I don't believe in Do you feel like me or can you honestly convey And say that when you were young and they Asked you what it was you wanted the most is what you see currently in front of you now, well I don't think so It makes it so hard to continue But then it happened X3 But then it happened in just a blink of an eye The motion started and the years just flew by So many hopes and dreams rushing through my head I thought I'd live to see them all before I give up what's left An endless, hopeless pattern Each moment pulls away from me and moves steadily I am of another plane. I must expand and separate Do you feel like me or can you honestly convey And say that when you were young and they Asked you what it was you wanted the most is what you see currently in front of you now, well I don't think so It makes it so hard to continue How has it come to this? How should I live with this surrounding darkness? Why have I grown so uncomfortable though I have been just in my own skin