Techniqe - This Ends Tonight lyrics

Welcome to my life, try to be me for an hour I can't f**ing breath, I can't even take a shower Without having thoughts, about me taking suicide I can tell my mom, I feel okay, but if I did, I lied I don't really give a f**, about your false kindness You didn't see, didn't care before, you call it blindness You didn't bother to help, when I needed guidance All you saw was me depressed, and that I used violence As an escape, to get away from this rock bottom life But you f**ers doesn't know, how it's f**ing like To be so hurt, and angry, that you don't know who You are anymore, that you've lost all your feelings, you Searching for an answer, and what it the meaning of Life, you can't find it, so you stop looking, it's like I fell off this planet, even before I was born I was an unborn accident, I supposed to be born with horns How long can I go, before I lose my mind How much pain can I take, before my feelings blind How many times can I, deny I've failed this life How many days will it take, untill I find a knife