TBH - The Day Before Easter lyrics

[Intro] [Verse] I sit down and flip a page or two My whole damn life is up in this journal March 18, 2005, I was a happy lil' guy living a happy lil' life Fast forward in time, 2k16 arrives I wrote the words, "I want to die." The page is stained from all my cries And all I could do was f**in' lie I think I'm fine, just drown my sorrows in wine And take a baddie to dine, or pop an Addy or nine Thought about doin' some lines, or f**in' turnin' to crime Just to feel like alive, I f**in' need a sign This music sh** saved my life I guess Cause now I won't ever stop til' I'm the best or I'm dead Never restin' in bed like I did when depressed I couldn't sleep at all cause then the demons came in They told me, "Leave all the sin, you're f**in' bleedin' again You need to quit with the pen, your heart you gotta reach in You're way off in the deep end, your life it f**in' depends On your will to live it." Listen to em'? I f**in' didn't My soul has some dents Sorrow chilled, didn't even pay rent I didn't have an outlet until I found out, yet That rap's the perfect medium to just yell and to vent [Outro]