Tapping The Vein - The River lyrics

I'm going to the river And there I'm going to swim until I sink I've been drowning here forever So, it won't make a difference to me Don't you see what the buzz is? Look at me I am nothing but a need to reach you If I don't go to the river I'm going to crawl into a hole and fill me in This thing will suffocate me So, you see, the only difference is when I don't know what the trick is Look at me I am nothing but a need to reach you I've waited so long That I can smell the rotting of my brain And I'm shaking and I'm stammering And tasting the sting of my failure Look at me I am nothing but a need to reach you Look at me I am nothing but a need, this need Every day I see rage in the mirror It's dripping from me Throbbing through me I can't be any clearer It's on my wall and it's frightening me