Tabs - I Can't Explain lyrics

This is for the struggle, this is for the pain and misery This is for the uncontrollable rage that lives in me I could explicitly paint it or it explain it dividely Still the inner workings of my brain remains a mystery Intrinsically ordain but I refrain from claiming victory Til I can take a breath that makes sense of this tainted imagery Plain and simple, late explanation that they're giving me Cannot break the chains or erase the stains of history It's illogical, hopping obstacles as I climb And it's hard to chronicle, a chronological timeline I'm kinda like Einstein when I design rhymes My thoughts scatter when they shatter that's why I'm at of my mind My thoughts are worded wordless, I have heard the verdict Now I'm seeing thing teetering on the verge of nervous I search the surface to confirm my worth is worthless Now I'm burning in this furnace for some predetermined purpose See I been to hell too, look at the hand I'm dealt So how can I help you when I don't understand myself I've been baffled mentally, for the past half a century Cuz of the purpose or actions that have happened accidentally And I can't explain cuz man was made fallible Feeling like a caged animal so the rage is natural My faith was malleable but now it's rock solid Try to borrow God's knowledge cuz tomorrow's not promised I'm free from bondage, even though the coast is clear I really don't know where I'm suppose to go from here The pain is so severe cuz I hold it near My whole career I been screaming there is not a soul to fear Still this arduous strain tends to start on my brain Cuz it's hard to explain how a heart harnesses pain I march in the rain to get my soul cleansed tonight No I won't bend and there's no end in sight [Hook] I can't explain why man's insane I can't explain why they put my hands in chains for playing this random games I can't explain why you would stab your fam for fame And why when we're burning in hell we only help um fan the flames I can't explain why the plans have changed I can't explain the ma**ive strain on my damaged brain I can't explain why the fans would chant your name But before the answers came I could understand the pain I've seen choices that have led to tragedy and slaughter Watch the poison as it spreads from the fallacies they offer I hear noises from the dead screaming there has to be some order Cuz the voices in my head are personality disorders You should know that I rose from the grave unafraid About to go berserk cuz I'm overworked and underpaid I'll never become a slave, I'd rather be a bleeding corpse I'll fight til my dreams are lost with the rest of my fleeting thoughts I see the cross and I'm reminded of a sacrifice And how I'm imbued with the force that brought it back to life I will scrap and fight with all that I got left You sound shocked, you knew I was bound to stop but not yet I'm slightly psycho, a perverted circus sideshow The pain that I hold takes a slight toll on my life's goal I feel timid but I write bold I've spent hours in the dark and now my heart is ice cold I'm frost bitten, addicted to that freezer burn This Earth is just as evil, it's something these people need to learn It reconfirms what it's for, d**h and nothing more I know this sh** s**s and this much I'm sure Cuz the main name of the game is to make paper Can't lock me to that son, Tabs One's a chain breaker Try to send me to my d**h I'll resurrect a day later 'Bout to eradicate all of these snakes and their fake nature I escape slave labor but it seems there's a paradox Cuz I plummet when I reach the summit of the mountain top These cowards plot to power lock the sound we got But I work around the clock, I don't know how to stop Whether I smoke an ounce or not, I'll still seem stressed Cuz I'm willing to help but I'm k**ing myself with each breath I'm speechless and I guess it's just as good Cuz these dreams of mine can't be defined only understood (Hook)