T.P.M - Note To The Sperm Donor (Freestyle) lyrics

[Intro: D_cider] I heard you got married You got two more sons Live in a huge a** warm house Drive the latest Mercedes ALLS GOOOD!!! [Verse: D_cider] Dear Sperm Donor I hope you listen this when you alone uh I'm that son you wasn't there for Had this feeling ever since I was a tadpole Pardon me, if I ain't call you Dad If you was the water bill you wouldn't have a unit on the meter In simple words you don't deserve that title! If I had a choice to give it to anyone without hesitation it would go to the baby sitter Mama worked like a slave Day in day out, couldn't tell if she was a night fitter or night shifter Matter fact both, what happened? I thought you were an honest believer Let me fix my voice,hmugh I'm such a vocal plumber Turn the volume up this is the winner of the day you wasn't using no rubber when I turned five the Lord took my o'lady, I was left bitter Clothes with no sleeve during the cold winter Wife bitter Its been 17 years i just came back from mamma's grave Life is dark more wild like I was born with mammals in a cave But that's just monkey business to you You never even popped the question, you just planted a seed and left Never mind that I wanted us to talk about something else too much too say, but not enough time for me,oh yeah so it rings the bells All I'm saying your actions weren't brave One of the reasons at school I'm finding it hard to behave Let along let God in, the same person who took something precious from me,be the same person Church says my life he can save I feel like his a treat,I'm not going atheist on you...wait...wait...let me finish my sentence! I'm not raising my voice! It feels so normal to me I grew up with rage All these emotions chained on a tender age I freak out as the water gauge Ofcourse I can't swim, isn't that something you should know? I thought as much What-what!...I don't have respect? When did you teach me that? Have you ever wondered why I'm so confused beyond reason Do you know how it feels googling manhood,the vast results you get when you type in that search engine S-Stop cutting me... Let me off-load I have to drive back home,you know its a long road Joburg to Mankayane is not a joke So when she pa**ed on I was only five years old Didn't it click to you I needed someone I hold on to My little fragile fingers I scratched my head puzzled,I remember that day I had my bald on too They were talking in the sitting room, where am I going to stay? My school fees, who was going to pay? Then they held hands and said let's pray I should lower my volume, old folks are praying its devotions My heart soaked up, give me some water, pa** me the soap Washing away all these emotions Left the burden to my grandparents One day you'll burn I'll serve the devil with his favorite servants Watch you go through pain and solitude you never saw me go through My heart is bitter, all because of you Maybe we could have healed together Help each other ceal the wounds together The hood was rough place to grow up in I received love from thugs I got deceived I fell in love with d** I started treating women like trash just like you did,even though it wasn't my intention I just broke my girls heart and you the first to hear this confession [Outro: D_cider] Yeah May the Lord forgive my pops, for abandoning me in Joburg, in the City Of Gold Where the women are hot and n***as are cold May the Lord forgive my pops, for abandoning me in Joburg, in the City Of Gold Where the women are hot and n***as are cold