Susperia - Distant Memory lyrics

Oh distant memory, where have you been and gone As I turn back to see, you're still not there with me I know you'll never come and I will live with that But if you one day come, I'll no longer be the one Wait in line this fight is mine Trust my words it's not your time Feel my rage to go run and hide Hate yourself you have no pride I said some time ago I'd be the first to leave And when it all went wrong I had myself to blame I can't take it when I need to take it I an wanting everything I'm so alone To wait for you is all that I can do I need to be with you or die alone What's alive and what is not To be real comes down to how you feel Now I paid for my mistakes again and again, too long to understand But when that's said and done, I have myself to blame Cos I can't see it when I want to see it I am needing everything I'm so afraid To seek the truth is all that I will do To think you would stay and feel at home Wait for me, just stop the time Left to prove you have no pride I can't watch all this, I hate to know the truth So tell me finally what do you want? To dream of you is all that I can do Something you'd never do in all your time I can't take it when I need to take it I am searching everywhere, I'm so alone To wait for you is all that I can do I need to be with you or die alone