Suicidal Tendencies - The Miracle lyrics

I sailed forever, I sailed so far, and now I know just what the consequences are I laughed out loudly, while I cried inside But I didn't have the streigth to say enough of this ride Like a fool - I believed in a miracle I wanted to forget, of what I'm not sure But I found an answer - it seemed to be a perfect cure Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot - like a fool I believed in the miracle f** the miracle! Twisting and I'm turning - first I'm freezing then I'm burning Laughing then I'm crying - am I living or am I dying? I'm Swearing then I'm praying - and I don't know what I'm saying Happy then so sad - forgiven then so mad Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in, do you still believe in miracles? f** the miracle! Pushing then pulling - who am I fooling? A friend then a foe - do I really even know? Love and then hate - so pure I'm gonna break Peace then at war - what am I fighting for? And then you always seem to Keep me - oh so sleepy So I can't realize - that it's all lies And the more it takes hold of me - the less chance that I'll ever be free And even though I don't believe - it's so hard to leave - a miracle - a miracle And if I could ever take them to, all the blissfulness that you See things as I do, but that would take more than a miracle The only way that's left to start, is by looking in your heart And that's the hardest part, ‘cause it takes more than a miracle Waiting - always hesitating - for the perfect day - that day was yesterday And the more you're gonna wait - the more of chance that it will be too late Now how can you afford to wait? I shed one tear I won't deny it, just one tear and I already cried it And now you'll see me cry no more, don't even know what I was crying for There's no such thing...