Such A Surge - Shot Myself (With A Plastic Gun) lyrics

shot myself with a plastic gun ran around with no sense of order when i found myself alone all alone with my fears fears that follow me around i couldn't help but i felt so empty i had to fill me up with something i found this gun i don't know where pulled the trigger and my head was wet no more pressure no more pain no more fear i can't take no more shot myself with a plastic gun me myself and i used to be friends now myself has disapeared what's the deal and what went wrong was it me who was too strong is myself really gone for good or am i too proud to see him dead am i caught inside myself plastic gun please free my head