Stoupe The Enemy of Mankind - Anxiety Defined lyrics

Continually suppress myself, sometimes my head is too aware Missing out on rest because sometimes I get too f**ing scared The penalties of my mind doing sh** that yours don't.. Its boundaries forever missing, there's no cure, I'm left with hope Hypochondriac as f**, aware of every capillary Ain't a type of worry that you could name that I ain't have already Anywhere I go there's no familiar faces Anything I look at for too long just stops to make sense Every single action that I take becomes a memory Looking at the same picture, you don't see the sh** I see Look a little closer, try to understand my pain Geometric patterns in my sight before a migraine Then my dissociation stops, I feel reality But my perception and experience of it is so much I disconnect immediately again before I throw up I might be faking, but it's more than likely Satan's cold touch If you want to know about overthinking, ask me how I'm never sure, it could be purely panic, or I'm pa**ing out And as I get older, yo, it just gets worse Counting my steps to confirm my control, I feel cursed At the same time I feel blessed it's all internally Although I feel my soul grow weaker every word I speak I was given this gift because I'm strong enough to handle it Give my mind anything and it'll just dismantle it Sometimes I won't even leave my house 'cause of a bad feeling But it seems like I always get that mothaf**in bad feeling I still ain't sure how to identify it when it f**ing matters Forcing me to treat all of my feelings like they f**ing matter If you want to know about overthinking, ask me how I'm never sure, it could be purely panic, or I'm pa**ing out I said If you want to know about overthinking, ask me how I'm never sure, it could be f**ing panic, or I'm pa**ing out