Stona - Dead In The Head lyrics

Here i Jot another line Cuz i feel deep down somethings not fine How come its so hard to shine I thought i was here to clam what is mine Still feeling like i'm lost inside my mind My dreams shouldn't be this hard to achieve Feeling Longer then it really seems Now i'm spitting this rap that everyone thinks its crap But f** it, I didn't write it for you, so shut the f** up Before i beat your face in with my Bat You expect me to give a crap? f** you I finally Snapped! No one could ever relate, to all this pain and hate I wanna break free from this gate I know it can't be to late I'm trying so hard to defy fate While everyone around me feels like they have nothing for me but hate I wrote lyrics to get the pain outta my head While i cry my pain away in bed Wishing i was just f**ing dead My fate I just wanna seal it This rap i just wanna k** it What cuz you can see it don't mean i can't feel it I guess my pain must be to real for you to feel it f** everyone who never ever give a crap Don't forget why you started to rap You Finally snapped Sick of fake f**s saying they have my back Always trying to show me what I lack Never there to spit a verse with me and make a rap Do what you do best, be a f**in pest Stay pissed, cuz i'm laying your a**es to rest I'm cutting all you bad apples from the tree You don't realize how hard it is to be me b**hes acting like they own me All i wanna do is try to make some money People take me serious instead of funny To be taken smart instead of a dummy Making it hard to be just me Many think im just uneducated While i just wonder if anyone ever related But no one gave 2 f**s not even people that are related To the point like f** i need to be on 24/7 medication It s**s big nuts. to be stuck in ruts, to the point Ya go nuts It s**s when you know when you die you won't be missed Trying to figure out why i'm so pissed Its why I rap it beats slitting my wrist Ya I know my life is a bit twisted To much bull sh** to be listed All you haters can go get fisted Can you please help me find my broken heart Between all the Ruckish we drifted apart I can't find it, I even went back to the start And I can't see in here my soul is to dark Oh sh** look i found a piece of my broken heart I can't even sleep the pain haunts me in my dreams Where no one can hear my screams Nightmares more real than it seems Our future staying hazy People thinking i'm no good and lazy Screaming to my wife "PLZ don't leave me Baby!" Tell me i'm not Crazy! At least give me a maybe! I can't take it I ain't goin fake it Without you i'd never make it f** I didn't know the end was near So here I face my fear I don't need this life As I grab for a knife, say f** it, I'll end it all here I just wanna give you and our kids a better life So I guess i'll see you all in the after life As I wake from the dream in bed Shaking my head wishing it was real and i was dead f** whats wrong inside my head