Stona - Beauty In d**h lyrics

I Feel like am dead, dead on the inside Its so easy to hide. along with my broken pride I lost my soul and is hard to find I lost it in the darkest parts of my broke mind I think my life is soon to be done Cuz again here i am thinking dumb Wanting to buy myself a gun and say f** i'm done Im sorry daddy is a f** up my son Cause i feel a pain that haunts me so deep While i sit here watching my little girl sleep I know there all 3 gifts from heaven I am glad to keep But i'm crossing that line I been wanting to leap Cause i can't give them the life they deserve and it hurts real deep to core I'm sorry I just dont want go on any more I am just a filthy little who*e Always hurting the ones I hold close Not many can feel my flows I have a pain that just grows A pain I have known way to long Drowning myself away with a bong While I try to forget how my life went so wrong I just wanna be gone I'm losing all who has ever mattered So f** it, on these wall my brains will be splattered Like the day my whole life shattered I'm so sick of being broke, to the point everyone thinks your a f**ing joke' Have you been so broke that you have lost all hope? Have you ever thought about hanging yourself with a rope? I have... Putting it around my throat tightening, My body begins fighting I begin to choke I think this rap will be the last thing that i wrote Im bout to inhale my last breath I am sorry i couldn't wait no longer for d**h This life is so hard to cope I'm about to sink with my boat Maybe after I croke people will finally see the beauty in what I wrote