Still Division - Apology lyrics

Here is the rub, and you will rub it til it bleeds You juxtapose, what is wrong with what is me And here alone, here in the wake of my mistakes All broken bones and broken faith Some black religion comes pouring out of you Like a masochistic j**eled-eye in a hurricane of cruel Words of thunder, words of rain Fall like tears of gravity And I dont know what you want from me I must look better on my knees My whole lifes an apology And what is love? Lets say its something like belief Lets just suppose that what I say is what I mean Is there no hope? Hope of you helping fill this space? Ive lost my home, Ive lost my way And a fission, like an ion split in two Our unbalanced whole unglued and the cosmos crying through Words of thunder, words of rain Fall like tears of gravity And I dont know what you want from me How guilty can the guilty be My whole lifes an apology