Stepson - Pulse lyrics

Everyday I wake up with weight on my shoulders With pressure on my chest, I get up, I give up I have no purpose, no reason to be alive The constant search for meaning is clouded by my eyes Every second, every minute, everyday It's exactly the same, I tell myself I'm okay I know I worry, yeah, I know I worry but I am not okay Unhappiness and loneliness only fuel the cause An empty shell, a mannequin of the person I once was I'm leading myself blind from nothing to nowhere With only the sound of my heartbeat letting me know I'm alive My reflection is a stranger, imperfection's in my nature Why do I put this pressure on myself? Every second, every minute, everyday It's exactly the same, I tell myself I'm okay I know I worry, yeah, I know I worry but I am not okay Unhappiness and loneliness only fuel the cause An empty shell, a mannequin of the person I once was I am not who you see I am not who I'm supposed to be I am not who you see I am not who I'm supposed to be No one knows me but myself And I hate what "myself" is No one knows me but myself And I guess that's the way it'll stay No smiling, just fade in the background I just want to be okay I am not okay