Staten - 6201 lyrics

Talks about being lonely Make me even lonelier Talk about doing good Never made me holier Well I'm not doing so well Closer never opener At 4am I'll dive into sheets Could always be soberer Wake up in the morning Feeling like I never tried I wake up in the morning While the sun's still on the rise I hope that it burns bright Today cause I could use that shine But it's constantly a struggle to find time To stay alive Vitals dropping lower, man I need to stabilize When to eat and what to drink Cannot prioritize I'm losing hope and faith As quickly as my appetite Don't know what the f** I'm fighting for I put my hands aside While they getting their diplomas I'll be catching up on quotas Loser, never moving, always using Never sober Taking out the garbage When depression's on the margin But if money's on my mind Then why do I feel departed? Cause Kaley's telling me To start believing in the magic Start believing in myself Before I leave or something tragic happens It's a habit, I'm tryna break it Create the happiness don't try and fake it They'll find all our footprints Imprinted in the carpet The dialogue of all our talks Are printed in that apartment The milestones that decorate Your wall will never move If everything just seems too much I know I'll look for you Hey Kourtney, what you doing right now? We can walk around the city See what it's all about Go and pick out an outfit Or wear whatever you want Wherever you want Pick apart a piece of your mind I found God in a little bit of you A southern angel with a halo made for two Taking in all of those flowers you removed Place them in your hair Or you can place them in my tomb But I don't think you want to hear me talk like that I love you cause you understand where my mind's at “If you're feeling hurt or lost, you know we got your back.” But I feel my spine decaying, keep myself intact Why do I feel so bad? Why do I feel like this? How do I explain to all my family that I want to quit? Not just the blood inside my veins but the ones I live with I'm so sorry but I'm tired of surviving at best