Standstill - Catching Up lyrics

I am not the type to admit when I'm wrong But when I asked for you to crash the car in one of my songs I was swimming in a river, I was fighting upstream And I jumped to a conclusion I've regretted ever since And I've written countless lines about poor states of health I've missed countless chances feeling sorry for myself Then we grew up, and I grew up, and I got over it Now I swear I am fine and I have been ever since So I guess you could call this catching up The autumn leaves, they still speak to me And her art is still my only frequency So I tune in, and I tune out And I'm convinced I am a god So no, you should crawl back to me by yourself So back when I would want to die, I'd lie to all my friends And well, I still lie and womanize; polygamist games And every crack inside my throat from every tall tale Couldn't sell me up the river cause I'm still chill as hell And I used to light the world ablaze with all of my angst Well now I just light my cigarettes cause I am through with it And I used to scream like a child in pain Well now I'm in control and I'm through with these games