SL Jones - My Apology lyrics

Intro: I'm saying that I'm sorry For all your pain You know who I'm talking to I ain't gotta say no names This is my apology The one that you deserved and never got from me I still ride you You did a lot for me I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me Reminiscing bout those days on Dick Jeter Road Mama used to heat the whole house with the kitchen stove Me and my youngest brother Peas from the same pod Dealt the same hand So we had to play the same cards What set you claiming? Wasn't easy to accept you banging I still remember Uncle Raymond saying "Nephews changing" n***as fear him in the hood cause his rep is dangerous Why bother rapping when trapping can make you just as famous? Respected young with a reckless tongue I would give you the last breath in this set of lungs Papa taught us street smarts We were never dumb You were raised to be a rider Trained to never run How could you be a better son to your mother When your older brother wasn't really there To show you how much he loved you? Charge it to my mind and not my heart I regret it I hope that my apology's accepted Forgive me Chorus I wish that I could tell you it's gon be alright I wish that I could say that it's gon be ok I hope you can forgive me as the days go by I'll regret it for the rest of my life I'll regret it, for the rest of my life Reminiscing bout them days when we got along A small pause while I recall how we got involved Oh I remember I just wanted to get in them drawers I'm far from perfect But you never seem to see my flaws Never did you wrong I always had the best intentions You just needed attention But I was out here grinding like a blender Two completely different agendas We tried to make it work Hoping time would heal where it hurt It kinda made it worse You want a loving husband and a couple of kids I just want a bunch of money and a couple of cribs You pictured having a beautiful wedding, family and friends I pictured having a candy blue chevy, ridin on rims You the type to settle down and be a man's wife I'm the type to stray away from commitment Addicted to the fast life Charge it to my mind and not my heart I regret it I hope that my apology's accepted Forgive me Chorus Live with regrets Forgive and forget I ask for guidance in my prayers I sin and repent Still reminisce Wish I could turn back the hands of time If I knew then what I know now I'd still be half as wise I laugh sometimes to keep from crying When there's no denying What you're implying I remain silent to keep from lying I'm not being biased when I cater to the flyest Some people too broke to get it But you just too cheap to buy it You know you're making noise when your haters can't be quiet And every public relation seems to lead to something private My sister's blowing up my phone to see whats up with Brian It happened as if I planned it I'm just really improvising Expected not to win That's why I tell it like it is All my little cousins big and my mama want some grandkids I know this sounds kinda selfish But if I don't help myself Im gon be helpless My sincere apologies I hope you accept it