Silent Session - Say This lyrics

[Intro: Silas] If I don't say this now, I probably never will So I gotta get this off my chest [Verse 1: Silas] If I had another chance at life - had a do-over Change a lot of things - first of all, would've stayed sober I would have stayed away from the d** Could have saved me a lot of time, lots of trouble, lots of problems I know now - but it's too late to take it back It's a part of me that in retrospect I regret But in some ways it actually helped me grow Learned some things that without I might never know So I gotta take the positive, separate it from the negative Look on the bright side is something that I never did Fall into self-pity something that i rather did But that's gonna change now - right into the opposite! Avoided all challenges, made it easy on myself And I was way too proud to scream out for help But I am a new person, scratch that, new man From now on I will take matters in my own hands [Verse 2: B.g. Bene] If I had another chance at life - had a new start Change a lot of things - first of all, wouldn't run away I kept chasing dreams, but only in my mind My lung wasn't able just to stand this test of time If I only hadn't wasted time, or should I say I'm so sublime 'Cause on the low my negative showed me the positive Say I endured the past, now the present is an odd lift Had my mind made up now I´m just rapping how I feel Throughout this course, I only felt nothing but remorse Living like yesterday's tomorrow, so who's gon' buy my sorrows There ain't no love lost for the one´s that ain't showing none I´m gon' keep digging 'til I find the right spot 'Cause when it´s all said and done I'm tryna find himself right here, right here Take a chance, get cut Even if I fall into this trap, I'll get back up (2x)