Shlohmo - Open Heart Surgery lyrics

I never thought No I can't start this off that way I'm pretty sure there was enough things in my life to instigate The ma**ive amounts of p**n Or the defeatist attitude Locking myself in my room Begging for solitude It all started when I promised you that I'd follow you No matter where you went Even if the grave was called pew dwellers To ascend through the sky to rendezvous with the most high Back then we were madly intertwined Ready to jump ship With our fingers locked and glide over ocean surfaces I've been pretty determined to find out what my purpose is In this life And I found nothing but you I guess I mean, that sounds sorta psychopathic in a way To be so insane as to rely on an imperfect being to hold all of your weight In exchange for a lifetime of protection and separation from pains Which in order to grow you have to step on that rusty nail And keep your f**ing mouth shut long enough to listen to others words Being genuinely honest I haven't learned much since I'm a know-it-all With my little bit of experience I feel like I could pa** off as a genius And sometimes even scoff at the heavier burdened lives of others And as a result I got closer to you Hoping that you could say what god previously failed to I had a problem telling the truth Expose me enough to the wind And it's cold cuts only feed my hunger temporally Verily verily well I could somehow trans-morph into an intellectual idiot And avoid being an insecure xenolalia speaking cynic Which is a deeper way of saying you're what I live for But all good things come to an untimely end And this is starting to go extremely sour within the past hour The look in your eyes scream distance and rejection This isn't the first time we've physically attacked each other And god knows if this will escalate into a fist fight And god knows who you were with the other night And god knows that this is the densest gap filled with mulch To make this sh**ty tree look pretty even though it's dying These asteroid belts on the verge of colliding Telling the story of a god complex worth hiding So it went from the best thing in the world To you understanding To me wanting to squeeze your breath out with my very hands Blaming you has become my favorite pastime Blaming you is my favorite pastime And it's sad because I guess it isn't really blaming anymore Since I made the first step I wasn't angry I just wasn't ready to be dead yet Or maybe I was using you to take that last notion To land my brains on the walls of the castle we built Honestly I thought we would become closer after you got colder since The warm was what you were using to combat me with But your beautiful tan skin is starting to grow pale And my only wish is to meet you there So maybe then we can close that long drawn distance And maybe avoid the pain of being in a separated existence And maybe this time around we'll appreciate what it is to listen And maybe save each-others minds One impulse at a time Because intellect k**ed us all