Sherwood Marty - Suicide lyrics

I am a person of survival But growing up, that was not really my title A dead soul who was screaming for revival A young girl who became suicidal I felt the hits and the kicks of society Probably the reason why I suffer from anxiety I was never in the form of perfection So I became the best example of neglection They called me names from fat b**h to white trash To other sh** I won’t say, it’s that bad They called me up and would always need back up Call me a s*ut and say my family was jacked up d**h threats every time I logged on Always on some other sh**, damn here we go again I was already alone, now I am looking for a friend Got no friends so here I am wishing it would end And it didn’t, it never did, was always something Every time I felt good, they would remind me I was nothing Every time I was down they couldn’t help themselves but kick me It tore me apart, took all the fight I had left in me I had enough, I was so f**ing done I couldn’t face all the drama so I decided to run But you can’t run forever, eventually you’ll get tired So I just stared at the rope, wishing my life would expire I mean f** it, if I am really nothing Then nobody would stop me from taking that rope and jumping So I took it, tied it around my little throat and proceeded to jump When my mom bust in the door, I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t know what to say I saw the tears in her eyes, I felt the pain go away How could I be so selfish, how could I think I am nothing? When the person who gave me life obviously thought I was something Now I pray, pray for the people who never saw the light Pray for the people who still cry at night And those people will think of my words like protection Think of them as the light when you fight depression Cos I know what it’s like, I been there before But for every close room, I’m here to open a door, I’m here to open a door I am a person of survival But growing up, that was not really my title A dead soul who was screaming for revival A young girl who became suicidal I felt the hits and the kicks of society Probably the reason why I suffer from anxiety I was never in the form of perfection So I became the best example of neglection They called me names from fat b**h to white trash To other sh** I won’t say, it’s that bad They called me up and would always need back up Call me a s*ut and say my family was jacked up d**h threats every time I logged on Always on some other sh**, damn here we go again I was already alone, now I am looking for a friend Got no friends so here I am wishing it would end And it didn’t, it never did, was always something Every time I felt good, they would remind me I was nothing Every time I was down they couldn’t help themselves but kick me It tore me apart, took all the fight I had left in me I had enough, I was so f**ing done I couldn’t face all the drama so I decided to run But you can’t run forever, eventually you’ll get tired So I just stared at the rope, wishing my life would expire I mean f** it, if I am really nothing Then nobody would stop me from taking that rope and jumping So I took it, tied it around my little throat and proceeded to jump When my mom bust in the door, I didn’t know what to do, I didn’t know what to say I saw the tears in her eyes, I felt the pain go away How could I be so selfish, how could I think I am nothing? When the person who gave me life obviously thought I was something Now I pray, pray for the people who never saw the light Pray for the people who still cry at night And those people will think of my words like protection Think of them as the light when you fight depression Cos I know what it’s like, I been there before But for every close room, I’m here to open a door, I’m here to open a door