ShaoLinn - Heavy Heart lyrics

[Chorus] I always had a heavy heart I always had a rough start I always had a ride or die But I never tried to take the time To tell them that I love 'em so Even when they're walking out the door If I just told 'em how I really felt I wouldn't have a heavy soul [Verse 1] Back in high school, I used to get bullied for my shoes They said I wasn't straight enough to dress how you usually do I was so insecure, I had to make sure my wrists were covered, too And when I looked in the mirror, I saw my crookеd teeth I always questioned, "Why would someonе want a girl that look like me?" I had no ass, no titties to bounce 'em up and down And when I walked down the halls, I wish I never was found But I know I had control I just never know how to take control I bottled up inside until it took a toll on relationships I know that it was wrong I had people that were there, pretended that they cared But a part of me still wants the love we used to share Even if they're not here Even if I'm not there [Chorus] I always had a heavy heart I always had a rough start I always had a ride or die But I never tried to take the time To tell them that I love 'em so Even when they're walking out the door If I just told 'em how I really felt I wouldn't have a heavy soul [Verse 2] And all the anger I used to bottle up inside I take it out on others, it happened all the time A victim and abuser inside my state of mind Everyone had to know I wasn't feeling right My mama's anger, brother's hatred Lover's stares, strangers' judgements Made me feel like I was alone Made me feel like I was alone But I know I own all my problems, control No one's fault but my own I need to learn, let go Maybe I'll find some peace awake Or in my sleep I just want to be free I just want to be free [Chorus] I always had a heavy heart I always had a rough start I always had a ride or die But I never tried to take the time To tell them that I love 'em so Even when they're walking out the door If I just told 'em how I really felt I wouldn't have a heavy soul