Senses Fail - Wolves at the Door lyrics

Last night I found heaven It's on the tip of my tongue And it reminded me of All the times I was young I'm catching rain in my open mouth I used to smile till the day I fell down I have no idea who the hell I've become It's not who I was, it's not who I loved I want to drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine I want to burn, on a beach where the sand Has thousands of needles poking at my skin I lie in bed to the sound, of the wolves at my door They are speaking in tongues While they claw at my floor I never thought it would come to this I'm more yellow than my own piss (They're making branches) to even the score Just open the door, just open the door I want to drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine I want to burn, on a beach where the sand Is littered with razor blades Littered with razor blades Blades Littered with razor blades I can't hold on, the path is clear I can't ignore, what's been building for years There's wolves at the door, I won't hide here in fear Wolves at the door, wah! I look at myself and the things that I've done Step away from the mirror and into the sun I forgive myself for all of my mistakes When will I learn, when will I, when will I burn I want to drown, in a sea filled with Novocaine I want to burn, on a beach where the sand Is littered with razor blades I gave up on myself a long time ago To the black clouds I'm swallowed And spit me out whole Some times it feels like I'm losing my soul At least that means I still have a soul left to lose