Scar Of The Sun - I Lost lyrics

Another day with my obscure reflection I'll survive An image so grotesque, from dreaming myself I deprive… Spreading the disease Through my lungs I blow to please The necessity to state That I won't let you down! Tendencies concealed Got no armour nor a shield Still on crutches try to stand I can't afford to frown! Gla**es on the wall Scattered splinters on my floor Like a custom made machine That will inflict the pain Weather is my foe And my cloud is hanging low Broken shelter over me I can't escape the rain I scream but you don't hear I'm far but always near Excuses I had none In denial I ran Elusive to your ear Confusing words now clear The justice isn't done My evil side has won! A burden of my own, my dreadful past I can't defy! A nail in my flesh for every time I made you cry! Spreading the disease Through my lungs I blow to please The necessity to state That I won't let you down! Tendencies concealed Got no armour nor a shield Still on crutches try to stand I can't afford to frown! You thought it'll disappear But clearly so severe The stain was never gone It just can't be undone! I whisper in your ear The tragedy of fear The justice of the gun Carved this scar of the sun… A nail in my flesh for every time I made you cry! …And that may sound strange to you But that's exactly what I see… …And what I see is what I feel! …And what I feel is what counts! …And it's far beyond you can conceive! …It's far beyond you want to believe! Behind every window of my memory! Over the every day survival! In every corner that the eye can catch! Above everybody else! Above everybody else… I lost!