SC Static - My Life lyrics

My Life Lyrics (Verse 1) Flippin' through my verses watch the pages overlap Reminiscing bout the days I played up on the cul-de-sac Heard 'It Takes A Nation Of Millions To Try And Hold Us Back' After that I wrote a rap, chose to stroll a lonely path My decisions got ‘em looking at their son ashamed Only worsened mother's pain, most will hurt but some will gain Overworked and underpaid, puffin' on some heavy gra** I ain't making any cash, gotta make this penny last Cause lately I've just been decision making poorly I've been giving up on shorties, I've been living off of 40's I've been learning, I've been searching, I've discussing our existence Only to discover that it doesn't make a difference Your son is gifted with exceptional talent I know it's unrealistic but I'm accepting the challenge Perfecting my balance, mastering the sk**s of this art form Drugs, money, and car doors. What is it all for? In My Life… (Verse 2) I never thought I'd be the one to let my parents down Never thought I'd be the son to leave my mom embarra**ed now I've ruined every chance and yeah I've had my fair amount Searching through my bank account and questioning my whereabouts But I guess that's a good problem to have Because alotta kids don't even have a father or dad It's like I always seem to miss the train and can't afford the bus Can't avoid the boiling rush, panicked and I lost their trust But then again did you ever give ‘em a reason to While all they ever did is sacrifice to be with you And all you ever did is lie when it's convenient to Don't mean to argue but I respectively disagree with you But then again you really taught me what I needed then Taught me how to deal with problems, taught me how to be a man You're influence is in my mind and my craft So I'mma take what you've taught me and then apply it to rap Cause This Is My Life….. (Verse 3) I never asked permission cause I'd never get it back I've made some bad decisions, now I gotta live with that I know I let you down and I am really sorry that It came to this, I never wanted that you're where my heart is at Since I was 9 I could write a rhyme that could ride the rhythm It's my decision, I'm sorry mommy that I ain't listen Feigning to damage mics, hoping I can win again Seems I've overan*lyzed life instead of living it I'd like to get my stuff to public, I ain't got enough to budget Need someone to knuckle up with, really it's a touchy subject I see my own reflection and I wanna s**er punch it I got good intentions but sometimes I'm just a f**in' f** up But I got purpose, pa**ion, patience, and pride Put all the hatred to the side, gotta stay and survive So now I'm, thinking of God every day I'm alive So anything I ever find I'mma take it in stride Cause This Is My Life…..