Satori - The River Is Getting Colder lyrics

[Verse] Ay, got a couple of bodies that I gotta get ridd of I'm makin' money but the hatred inside of me gettin' deeper Now I'm lookin' for a route of escape Cause everytime I play this game stupid sh** surrounding me, it never change I been flipping for the better I remember that stupid kid that was [?] Runnin' from the left to the right Makin' money in the middle of the night And it's crazy, smokin' on the medical, thinkin' 'bout my life I'm motherf**in' swished up and turning [?] This life ain't for me I should be dead by now But it's funny how I borrow life somehow Who the f** am I? Product of the streets Sometime I go 2 weeks without a plate to eat or some sleep That's just me Am I going crazy? I don't know Walkin' in the middle of the streets with no place to go Lay my head down on a pillow [?] I'm lookin' in the mirror, I see nothin' but tragedy This sh** is crazy I lose my mind sometimes Now I'm lookin' at the ceiling thinkin' 'bout how I could've done better I could've done this and that My life's f**ed up, I don't even know if I should turn around back Smokin' on this sh** Try'na heal all the pain Moma told me if you stay in this life some things that will never f**ing change Oh sh**.. that's true I just don't know what to do Now I'm stuck in a river Smokin' on this sh**, f**