Samuel - Wandering/Bipolar lyrics

[Intro] Ba-ba-ba-ba- She-ba-ba-oh Oh-she-ba-ba (x4) [Verse 1: Samuel] Lately I realized that I got potential People tryna say that I gotta pay attention People tryna say that I gotta lot of essentials I mean I do, and I can't disagree with that Utilize what I got from the greatest [Hook x2] It got me wandering, wandering, wandering Through the winds and the trees and It got me wondering, wondering, wondering If I'm ever gonna reach it And I put that on my conscience If it ain't optimal it ain't nonsense If I ever look at the bigger picture Some day I'm gonna know Just how I'm gonna find it [Verse 2] In the ideal life I feel like I'm tryna be a likeable legend With any necessary credentials Of being what you need And what you see as a luxury Only by the means of expression All of y'all MCs talk about legitimacy And if you practice what you preach The tactics that you teach If I don't do that, then my Words are figurative Or about what I strive to be Hypothetically speaking deep Down all of us delicate people And if I could see through The mirror, I would defeat the reason For wielding it as a shield of appeal So spin around three times And clap your hands for the little White boy rap game Peter Pan If you don't like me, you better press pause And drink a gla** of the bleach For the players and the fam on the bleachers [Hook x2] [Verse 3] *sniffs, chuckles* Look look look look, now check me out In twenty thirteen on September Twelve I swear I was sober The doctor telling me I'm suffering From bipolar. I'm over it now Ups and downs, I never turn up I only turn out to be a candle That would rather outburn than burn out So I can handle any mood change I'm who makes blue faces By the daily to no avail And my work ethic is a set of medications Until I have a heart attack out of palpitations And to this day I haven't failed I kept my habits in check I cared about it so much Didn't know how to relax Employers loved it so much My social life was a wreck Till I noticed all I really needed Was to take a deep breath And so I inhaled and exhaled for a sec Now I discipline myself To moderately react To any invitation from the homies just to hang out So when I do, to say the least Here come a disaster Only on Tuesdays would I f** a Blue haired girl with two faces Eating blueberry pancakes So how deep do I have to dive into my brain To maintain a lack of distraction? I'm addicted to caffeine and bad b**hes with minimal tattoos - My optimal vices. What can I say? I like it. The needles and the legal Speed to me are so inviting And needlessly to say I Keep it on me only public sighted It's a heavy weighted mindset f** all that nonsense we going timeless I'm kind of kidding when I say I miss all the crisis With empty promises And that stupid option list You gon' have to copy some kind of Pill to be popping. I pop them all myself Cause I got bodies to lobby and I got Hobbies to bag. I got undrainable water heaters I gotta take out. I got a book full of recipes That I haven't tried out. I got a girl who wants me Down her neck like she a giraffe But now my purpose be in contact I need to let go of perspectives in my past Cause if I don't I won't ever grow But this ain't no flower I'm just a thing in the sky And I just fell of the biggest bird I'm a feather