All the pain that haunts me still. And all the shame surrounding you, is now the past that I can't k**. Forever wrapped around me. And all the sadness was your life, are now the things that I can't hide. It's just a fear that's deep inside, from all the years of hiding. There's a ghost that's inside of my mind, and a pain is still haunting me. So I can never go back and rewind. And I can never have peace or be still. Somebody take this away. But I have lived for you, and every single little thing you do. But I have lived for you, and I won't k** myself for loving you. They took you far away from me, so I could never find you. They made me blind but I can see, the loaded gun behind you. The end of all that this boy knew, inside of me was the inside of you. I miss the way we used to be, when I was what would bring you through. Because I have lived for you, and every little thing you do. But I can't rise above your lies, that you have gladly made your life. And I won't k** myself for loving you.