Sal Houdini - Dean's Room lyrics

(Voice-mail) I was really hoping that you would pick up because I miss you a lot and uhm... I'm sorry that I'm crying right now but I'm drunk and uhm... I'm sorry this is bullsh** I miss you a lot and uhm You were one of my best friends and uhm There's a lot of alcohol in my system right now So you could just ignore all of this message if you get this (Verse: 1) I need the right brush to paint what I'm trying to say to you You broke me into pieces but my heart will always pray for you I'm violent, aggressive I need to let it out what do I do? I'm back in depression I'm battling something I always lose There's too much that's going on in my head Girl I don't expect you to understand Popping pills ain't gon' get me through this storm You just stopped caring you said that you did I'm f**ing up and I'm losing focus I bet money you didn't know this I'm not me tell me have you noticed (Hook) Now she's gone Wishing I never gave her my all And now she's gone Wishing I never gave her my all (Verse 2) I can't even think straight right now I don't know what to say right now Nothing much to do but break down And I say to myself not now You don't want to when there people around What are they going to say right now? No idea I'm in pain right now I don't ever show it I don't ever talk about it There's too much that's going on in my heart Never expected you'd tear it apart I don't drink so that's out of the question You just stopped caring you said that you did I'm f**ing up and I'm losing focus I bet money you didn't know this I'm not me tell me have you noticed (Hook) Now she's gone Wishing I never gave her my all And now she's gone Wishing I never gave her my all (Verse 3) Yeah G threw a party Ali threw a party Women came over cause they threw a party I'm trying to call you but that's not an option I know if I do everyone will stop me I need you right now I need you right here next to me I need to tell you exactly how I feel f** moving too fast that's the lamest excuse I pictured myself succeeding but with you You became my addiction now I'm itching You don't know that I just got a few stitches You don't know that I'm not caring for myself You're not being you you're being someone else f** your new n***a I'm not being me either something's in this hookah Everything is so wrong I'm about to be so gone