Sage Of Six - 6 A.M. lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm sitting alone Telling myself it's worth it Staying up late Writing Trying to find purpose It's bout as pointless as Cursive I'm bout as worthless as Verses I'm writing about this b**** I've been dying to Break up with But f*** it I guess I've finally found My inspiration A medium for depression I can enter any second I've been waiting my whole life Just to get to this moment Now that I've got it I'm realizing That it's not what I wanted And at the same time I'm comfortable Feeling painful and lonely I apologize For sounding Stressed Broken hearted Half depressed And mentally retarded Even Kru told me That I should try to write it Lighthearted I'm sorry But if I could Then that's probably How I'd have started Off harder than I did Because I'm really just a kid Who's getting in touch With his feelings I Never thought that I'd show it Nor spit it So I spit it The way I get it And when I get it I run with it And when you're writing off of emotion It's hard to have fun with it And every single lyric Is what I feel in the moment I don't care about the structure I'm basically freestyling You want essay rhyming Then go looking for the tyrants I'm really Not even a rapper I just spend my time rhyming See what separates me Is that I'm not even trying I just threw some s*** together Then seen if people would buy it Yea the lights I eye it And the ice I'd buy it But if I really feel into fame Then I probably wouldn't like it But I figured I'd try Because all of these careers Are uninviting I would have Been in college for science Realizing that I was dying Inside But I guess it doesn't matter Where Because no matter what I pursue I feel like I don't belong there But this is all a n**** knows And this all a n**** loves So even though I belong on the bottom I'll pretend to be above [Verse 2] Sometimes when I sit alone I look at life through the scouter lens And try to figure out How in the h*** I started all of this I go in and out Deciding wether or not to be in the crowd Because the crowd is filled with crows And I see d**h behind the clouds And my life's been a dark shroud of shadows Ever since the senior year And it's been clear to me That I'm no longer who I used to be I Failed cla** Fell in love Contemplated using d** To get over everything that's ever mattered And say f*** it Kick bucket When I'm sober I'll pick it up before it's over Told my alma matter Life is what you make it So I'll make it over Riding in a stroller my whole life When I made it out I jumped into a roller coaster Tried to hold the shouts Being the baby in mans situation Making the wrong decisions And always being too patient While ill-tempered My current temperament Is ill-measured I measured all my blessings And weigh them against the others Like why couldn't I carry Half of the pain for my loved ones It's just wrong To overlook being untroubled While others go through more than double What I'm sitting in I'm sitting here Wondering what I'm doing here How can I make it easier For people who I love When they don't have it fair We're charging fairs Just to weigh outcomes Tell me how come Everyone can start to jog And others can get outrun Praying up to God Like help them Lord Let me help them Lord And now I ask the Lord Why'd it even have to happen to them We're just babies They didn't deserve the weight And babies need love These kids don't deserve the hate We try to eat all we can But they've got too much on their plate Man we have Monsters in this game of life They don't deserve to play Why don't you take the people Who do wrong Sooner than the good ones Thugs don't hesitate to k** And they're k**ing the shook ones The ones with a conscience Always dying from nonsense Fell victim to society And then resort to violence Forced to live out countless Hours With no power No power for lights And no power to fight We fight Just to survive So how can you Kick back and thrive That's the question that their asking But I got nothing but pa**ion To give them