SaDiCi - Zach's Song lyrics

[Verse 1] Sometimes i thank god, I'm alive and i pray That I'm finding a way in this life, I'm blessed breathing today An introduction isn't needed, pay attention as I'm speaking From a friends point of view that you're hearing I'm just bleeding how I'm feeling with some words A verse could never capture, in search of deeper answers To questions that i can't understand fully Dry and wipe my eyes as i recite my story A side that i be showing, inside i kept it in But a friend that i had, isn't with us and it haunts me Why we could have so much but feeling sorry for ourselves To the point that we just break and we snap Family drained with him love, but a stain from the past Can never wiped, by eleven his life was almost taken My moms took him in, i met him i was scared, he was friendly But I'm not sure what he was like, till time pa**ed He was honest, no problems it seemed He was staying with us but behind it all He was taking ecstasy and a lot of the weed Empty pockets, no dollars to start up a dream So much potential, he was loved by everybody It was hard to believe, it was hard to believe [Hook] You can never understand You can never understand You can never understand You can never [Verse 2] It was hard to believe, he was genuine, sweet All the sudden no desires, no longer wanting to breathe The memories running through my head, my last conversation Had my mind racing more than ever, i was pacing back and forth Cuz i called him and he told me he had enough of living His time had the reached ending, i didn't wanna listen Me and mom went to visit, she went in He ended his life right in his room, took his own life Everything was a blur, Soon as i heard the beginning of her words I started crying like i never cried before, my legs hitting the floor Feeling like my heart, man somebody had torn At any moment, with no warning i might lose it yo I couldn't imagine going the funeral, too real for me to go It got me thinking, on the cliche Don't judge a book by its cover His d**h still leaves me so puzzled He was the most caring, he would talk to anybody About anything to make em' feel good I keep on thinking what would have happened If his actions were changed, and had the intentions to be here today [Hook] [Verse 3] Nobody understand how i feel And a lot of my peers try to understand it But his image appears, in my mind His whole life was just wasted in vain He had a talent for art, and he might have been great You prolly think its one life and why i can't get over it You prolly never experienced hopelessness Losing a closest one, to a suicide, just makes it more personal He's in a better place, but his sister today I know that its hurting you, its only been a year And you prolly can't sleep cuz you wishing he was here But you gotta remain positive God can take, God can give Obstacles make it impossible to wanna live I wonder if he gave a thought about the people that needed him What if he stayed, overcame the odd, defeated it No remote control to rewind to be repeating it Sometimes i question too, whats my purpose in life The more i think about it, it hurts cuz i really can't find But i know i will, i just gotta get give it some time Sometimes i think he was selfish doing what he did Its easy to go, only a strong mind can resist