SadBoyProlific - Pain lyrics

Girl get out my mentions You actin’ pretentious Used me for attention I’m just glad we ended Gotta razor blade in the depths of my mind Thoughs too sharp I’ve been in my grind Can’t believe I let you waste my time Used to hate myself, now I’m all ’bout mine Too much negativity around me Fake homies wanna kick it like rousey Remember back then all they veer did was clown me Now I got the drip and they all drowning Haters like a boat cause they riding the wave I’m just tryna leave a mark fore I’m dead in the grave Nights spent screamin while I’m cuttin with the blade Either that or I’m cryin with a gun to my brain Let it bang, yall don’t understand my pain Red on my walls, homie no it ain’t paint I just wanna end it but I gotta refrain I just wanna end it but I gotta refrain Don’t wanna be letdown, but I’ve done it enough Too many ash stains and razor blade cuts So I’m reachin’ to my waist for that thang I keep tucked This the last time that I’m holdin’ the gun They really think that I’m on one Came on up the scene, made a wave, then my heart sunk Used to playing games with me, go look out the outcome Hitting up my phone now, sorry but it’s all gone I don’t got the time, busy feeling pain Looking a my scars, I don’t think they’ll fade away Playing with my head, so I’m aiming at the brain Used to be the one they loved, now I’m singing in rain I’ve been sitting in my room making songs and they all bang Only way to ease the mind when it’s all pain Old friends hit my line but I don’t hang My anxiety’s been pushing me the wrong way Tired of wainting, I’ve been stuck in the mud And I really hate the fact that I was never enough Everyone around me thinks I’m living it up But really all I wanna do is go and drip on the gun