Ryan Lomonaco - My Life lyrics

I'm living my life, only wanting to be spittin' heat I feel like quitting, I write each night, givin' each Bar my all, I'm driven to fight anyone dissin' me My ambition ignites the crowd, what I've written speaks What I think, I don't hold back, n I'm never dramatic I'm so cold that Satan would shiver from the havoc The voice in my head won't fold and makes me frantic It don't grow old, cracking my own soul that be manic When I'm the center of attention, I become nervous Tension n pressure build, 'til I freeze up, wordless Prevention from attention's what has seemed to purchase My obsession, I don't talk, making me feel worthless I wanna make new friends, but as I start speaking I feel it's a waste using their time, my heart's bleeding I ache doing anything and try hard leaving Out hate, viewing good thoughts 'til darkness we start seeing Everyday waking up to the same damn life Hustling all day, 'til I'm drained at night I don't give a f**, and I aim to fight Anyone in my way with the flames I write Only seeing struggle in my eyesight Cause I muscle my way through all of my strife Stay humble and hustle are the highlights So trouble can't muzzle me in my life I work so hard, all day and night No scar can jar me, I'll stay and fight You start to dart as I say "My Life" It's dark with no heart, can you save my life? I'm so pissed man, cause I give all of my best effort N don't get fans, popular kids rapping get them better N I quit plans to spit and write, but then never Get heard, it's an endeavor and it won't end ever I get f'ed up daily cause I'm getting fed up N stressed from my messed up life, feeling dead cause I can't rest but must wreck the beat, and keep my head up I get judged daily living with kids who get what- -ever they want, live happy, never struggle As I hustle and juggle all my troubles so subtle From my dad's cancer to my mom stressing me out To my dad letting me down, drinking and lessening doubt That he'll get better, I don't wanna live distant From him, but his effort to be here isn't existent I don't get pressured to talk to him, I'm resistant Cause he is never there to help me, he is missin' Everyday waking up to the same damn life Hustling all day, 'til I'm drained at night I don't give a f**, and I aim to fight Anyone in my way with the flames I write Only seeing struggle in my eyesight Cause I muscle my way through all of my strife Stay humble and hustle are the highlights So trouble can't muzzle me in my life I work so hard, all day and night No scar can jar me, I'll stay and fight You start to dart as I say "My Life" It's dark with no heart, can you save my life? N at all times all this sh** builds up inside me But I never fall n quit, n never cry be- -cause all the hits are mauled when it's time to rap, I'm free As I start to give awe n spit hot bars that rhyme each Line..... But then once the beat stops, I have to go back to The sh** that needs lots of my time, so as you Live happy, I be lost, fighting with hope that through Every struggle n each shot I can get better Cause I still see my dad drunk, it's worse, we don't give effort To talk, so I don't talk much, my nerves be filled wit pressure Whenever I be speakin', so now I just stay quiet Keepin' to myself, I be in a mind state of hate, pliant Cause my mom's screamin' words beatin' my mind, making me stay silent As I battle demons seen in my life, so I'm always violent Everyday waking up to the same damn life Hustling all day, 'til I'm drained at night I don't give a f**, and I aim to fight Anyone in my way with the flames I write Only seeing struggle in my eyesight Cause I muscle my way through all of my strife Stay humble and hustle are the highlights So trouble can't muzzle me in my life I work so hard, all day and night No scar can jar me, I'll stay and fight You start to dart as I say "My Life" It's dark with no heart, can you save my life? Everyday waking up to the same damn life Hustling all day, 'til I'm drained at night I don't give a f**, and I aim to fight Anyone in my way with the flames I write Only seeing struggle in my eyesight Cause I muscle my way through all of my strife Stay humble and hustle are the highlights So trouble can't muzzle me in my life I work so hard, all day and night No scar can jar me, I'll stay and fight You start to dart as I say "My Life" It's dark with no heart, can you save my life?