If I wrote it in a letter Would you take the time to read about My sorrows of forgetting How we used to share the mornings Back when we had reached our peak Cause it was a long way down that mountain After tumbling blindly through your stones and thorns It felt so cold To look back and see you with someone I've seen before I should've seen this coming I always feared the lonely road and where it'd take me I'm always falling in love with what's not meant to be So if i decide to disappear Leave dependents second guessing If they're the ones that sent me packing I only hope they'd leave me be Cause I've seen a lot of disappointment And I'm running out of things to tell my mother in appointments When the doctor doesn't know if these pills are even working I know it hurts her baad to see me like this But am i really like this? You should've seen me sobbing On my way home down the road I've been avoiding No matter where the hell i run, depression finds me No matter how damn tired i get, this keeps on happening I'm always falling in love with what's not meant to be Waste, don't watch me waste away Say, I won't just waste again I changed again for you I lost my brain again for you And all along i knew you were no good But its hard to be alone and understood I changed again for you I sleep in vain again for you