Riverside - After lyrics

I can't take anymore I can't breathe I'm sick of this goddamn darkness, Sick of sadness and tears I throw it all up every single day Together with last night's dinner I have lost myself completely I have convinced myself I am someone else For God's sake, I need to be real I need touch I need... people? I have to turn my life around... But... I will still be myself, won't I...?