Riverboat Gamblers - A Choppy Yet Sincere Apology lyrics

You wouldn't know me depression kicks in, when panic's attacking and I miss medicine When my neck can't hold up my head and I just can't get out of bed When you see me uncomfortably chain smoking, trying to force up a smile Then I'm slippin' (slippin') again And I don't wanna drag no one down with my problem That's in my head I'll probably snap out but I just don't know when Apologies from me This is nothing that I want you to see Trying to drown out that ringing voice Mike, give it up, give it up Like a pick in a hollow body Give it up, give it up, give it up down Into the sea, tentacles got me by the neck and they're pulling me down I try to keep in check Stay on top, teeter tot won't balance I guess Every time I get one under control the rest start rising and then I stay shut up in my home Agoraphobic and alone 'Til with bit lip, f** it, I gotta try Hands clenching, sweating Don't want no one to see in my mind It's not a pretty sight The right half don't work and the screws aren't tight Apologies from me This is nothing that I want you to see Trying to drown out that ringing voice Mike, give it up, give it up Like a pick in a hollow body Give it up, give it up, give it up down Into the sea, tentacles got me by the neck and they're pulling me down