Rittz - I'm no Good lyrics

Yeah Sometimes I just get f**ing pissed off I just get sick of all this bullsh** sh**'s sad growing up in the gutter But I met a lot of kids, want to be like I am It's weird, people see you on the come up Then you happy with some money but I'm mean and I'm pissed My girlfriend knows that I love her But I mentally abuse her and I treat her like sh** We both suicidal, she a cutter All I do is self-loath, what's the reason I live? Bunch of empty liquor bottles in the cupboard Lying to each other like next week we'll quit Get drunk, make a straw outta dollar But it's okay, it's only c**aine, not meth My family looking at me like a f** up And they're right, and I don't want to disappoint my twin I pray one day I'll recover But it's like I'm tryin' to schedule an appointment with the devil Lord knows I don't wanna die So I'm begging, praying help me please I lie like [?] in the summer With anxiety and I ain't got no self-esteem Lot of people are going wanna tell me shut up Cause they got it way worse, I'm a selfish piece of sh** Make a motherf**er wonder, what it's gonna take for me to change mentally Bags underneath my eyes cause I live too fast Grey hairs on my beard Feelin' like I can't breathe if I don't take a pill so I'm always on a Xan Drink a bottle every night, I feel them doing damage to my liver I ain't ever been this fat and disgusting I don't wanna rap, I wanna nap on my love-seat I ain't sayin' this to get no pity, I'm just feelin' sh**ty Lookin' like a piece of metal rusting, and trust me And I don't really like The person I've become This isn't who I thought I would turn into when I was young But now I'm grown and they say I'm No Good No Good No Good No Good No Good No Good I'm just a drug addict, drunk, I'm No Good No Good No Good No Good No Good No Good They say I need to turn my life around I don't know, maybe I'm a hater I'm supposed to write a rap, but I hate rap now Stop breathin' when I'm sleeping then I wake up Still in my clothes, can't remember how I pa**ed out Lately I'm an angry drunk am I'm afraid I Might have been a dick, best friend's gettin' cussed out But, f**er then I guess I found a liter What I done, 'nother hungover day bummed out Ooh sh** I ain't no exaggerator Nose bleedin', trying to act like I ain't sniff sh** People think they're motivating me to take up a different lifestyle f** them and their Fitbit They just wanna help but don't appreciate uh Cause they love me, and they don't wanna see me die young Every day I'm dissapointin' my creator I've been strugglin' to get up out the hole I dug Lately I've been switchin' over to the vapor Chain smokin' newports [?] my lungs I can see my future and it's [?] Girl cryin' to the operator, calling 9-1-1 I tour, blessed to be an entertainer Been spendin' months away from home, there's nothing I find fun Signed a record deal, I love the record label Three albums later, underrated when it's my time come Couldn't afford the tour bus, so I went and bought a van There's some money selling records, so I got to tour again I don't wanna bore the fans, so I bought a couple lights Plus some background singers, but I can't afford a band Jealous of these rich rappers and the money that they make I was up outside of Chili's having lunch and a lame Started rooting for his team on the screen When I see happy people wanna punch them in the face I'm ashamed cause I don't really like The person I've become This isn't who I thought I would turn into when I was young But now I'm grown and they say I'm No Good No Good No Good No Good No Good No Good I'm just a drug addict, drunk, I'm No Good No Good No Good No Good No Good No Good They say I need to turn my life around Yeah Ye-ye-ye-uh Ye-ye-ye-ye-f** f** it