Ricky Conaway - Unthinkable lyrics

Reminiscin' about the past again Like the time that we was in Alice's backyard But instead of the standard jokin' and laughin' like normally, there was somethin jus buggin' us so we had to dip And I know what it was, but I won't mention it Feel like we lackin the love, but I won't question it Can't deal wit these people bringin' this pressure in Tryna be focused and rid of all of this extra sh** But should I follow my head or my heart? Certain people I know that just wanna tear me apart Certain people don't understand all the pain that they brought, I brush it off and don't let it get in the way of the art At a fork in the road, feel like I'm forcin' to the flow This rap sh** is controllin' me way more than you know People sayin I'm changing and think I'm morphin but no Y'all just need to understand that it's important to grow, ya know? And this is more than jus some sh** that I do for the money Cause to be honest I haven't made a buck These rappers seem to think they're the truth and it's funny But only because they think that i gave a f** And all the paper I coulda made, from CD's Instead I jus gave em away as freebies Four years of work that i put into an hour So pardon me if I feel that I been given the power f** it I made a choice and had an under-B average Only cause I don't just wanna f**in be average Stuck wit this pa**ion, I'm deteriorating So I don't really give a f** about the tier or the rating you give me Lookin' out and I can hear what they're sayin to hit me I can feel them eyes on me, I'm tastin the pity I know I should prolly be erasin' em quickly But fear and hate are correlatin' and makin' this sh**ty f** it I guess we all got a different taste Betchu ain't see this comin like when the piff is laced I still remember when no one would ever listen They said that I wasn't sh** And that I showed up a minute late For the homies you know I'm down for a prison break in Often we talk about what we instigated f** a thesis, f** a résumé and mission statement I'm tryna make me some bangers jus so the kids'll take it But is that selling out or taking advantage? Cause I jus see it as making advancements Man I just see it as taking the chances For all I know I could fall and put my face in the canvas But I'd rather f**in fail on the chase to the answers Than to put all the time I got to waste on a campus Some of the realest sh** I ever wrote man.. Look Amanda told me that I got it in me Im full of doubt but I know that I'm bein' all I can be I'm still on the search to fill up the spot that's empty I hope they know that their criticism does not offend me I checked my mail and saw --- was followin me I know the sh** that we used share had a rocky ending But I hope we can patch it up as we're older now Or maybe that's only how it's supposed to sound Cause if we're being honest I'm still a bit bitter you ain't keep ya promise I'm uncoverin' more with all of my recent findings So how in the f** do you have a decent conscious? Wanna say that I'm over it but I'm not yet Dont really know how much in the tank that I got left Wait for the day that I won't have to have this clock set Keep it hunnid, it's still the simplest concept Ridin' wit Kevin, Chris and Jay before Fetty was poppin' More than ever now, failing is less than an option I'm wishing I could just bring an end to this nonsense Just because I'm movin' on, don't meant it's forgotten I'm currently doing sh** that I used to dream of Refer to me as the new Katrina We seconds blowin I call it Fukushima When these rappers talk there's nothin' they can do to beat us Lucky I ain't threw some peanuts.. Lil homie did you forget who you're dealin' wit? Should I provide you wit a reminder? The one who made these local rappers plead the fifth When in reality I wasn't even tryna Can't remember them ever makin' some decent sh** I gotta wonder why people callin' it fire With that said, just look at who I'm competin' wit It's no wonder I can't go up any higher..