RHYMAN - Dear Camela lyrics

Dear camela, I cant believe how long its been since you left its crazy How often I dream of seein you again seeing you in front me - but then I wake up - suddenly its all gone except the picture in my head and That picture still is there damn I miss it when U read stories to me when I couldnt fall asleep in my bed cause the bed bugs would bite - but you said its alright ....I didnt believe you - so you stayed there all night I guess it didnt have to be comfortable for you As long as you could comfort me - thats what youd do And I love you for that - camela ...you were heaven sent You were my hero - from my birth till eleven then That thing came....and started takin you away slowly but surely... came that day..... that day in spring ------ when you were released from all the pain you were goin thru - rest in peace .....camela...I love you forever Camela.....camela...I love you forever Camela.....camela...I love you forever Camela.....camela... and now 8 years on - Im writin this song just to show you I never forgot you -despite bein gone for the most of my youth - all my teenage years too I wish you saw me grow from the kid I was to this dude still a kid - still your god son - still your nephew unlike marriage I love you longer than d**h do us apart -and this is just a start - just a message count my blessings - from my heart Im restless when it comes to art Ive tried so many times to write you but I always failed everytime I sat down --- I didnt know what to tell you - I just wanted to hold you - smell you then you were prevailed from that sickness went thru hell I cant even imagine what you went thru - never will but all I can hope now is that youre doin well better - cause all you deserve is the best I love you forever - till my final breath Camela.....camela..I love you forever Camela.....camela..I love you forever Camela.....camela..I love you forever Camela.....Camela... And I remember ------- the last moment we shared I sat next to your bed - my hand on your forehead my other hand was holdin yours - we just stared at each other because you couldnt talk anymore so we were..... talkin with our eyes - talkin with our souls reminiscin bout the times - when ur life wasnt cold sittin next to you that moment was the hardest sh** Ive ever done That feelin made me suffer - not a nother family member gone I couldnt accept it - didnt understand the reason all my family suffered greavin never seen my daddy screamin not in anger - in desperation cause he lost both sisters - but not his patience And I admire him for that - He tried to stay strong in front of us kids - cause thats what fathers want to be the role model - no bottle helped him at all We overcame the pain together - holdin on I remember this one time when I came home from school one day...and this was when you already had cancer....you asked me what Im up to....I said I dont know...not much...Im probably just gonna go out and play or something.... you asked me if you could take me for a walk...and I was like yeah whatever... I mean as a 10 year you dont really go for walks with your aunt do you... so we went out...we walked for a while.....then we sat on a bench... you took my hand.... and said.....Ryan... No matter what happens to me in the next week...month...or even years...I will always be with you. No matter if Im here when you grow up or not, I will always be watchin you..and protectin you..not only from the mosquitos in your room, but from all the things life throws at you. So when you feel sad...talk to me...write me a letter...I will hear you....Dont mourn my d**h...we will always be connected... I love you