Rêverie - Nothing Left lyrics

Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Such an old soul With such a young spirit People try to tell me how to live my life I don't wanna hear it And it's not ‘cause I'm not good at listening But I'm not commisioning any human to be belittling me I'm distancing myself It's interesting Cause when I took that step back I couldn't believe what I was witnessing Behind the scenes f**ing nevermind these things These people don't think I see their true intentions when they be lyin' to me? I try to be myself and I try to be true But when I look in the mirror I don't know if I see Reverie or you This relationship is so utterly complicated Cause Reverie provokes thoughts of everything that I've ever hated Frustrated, and jaded My heart was invaded Persueded my prevaricational fantasies To remain sedated I waited I dictated my struggles and my devestation Unmotivated and tainted I led my life intoxicated Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me So tell me how you deal with these split personalities One focuses on life and the other upon the casualties See gradually I'm faded So damn focused on the drama Only person that still seems me as “Jordan” would be my mama Put it on ya if you want it You can say my house was haunted Took four pills to murder my baby Felt her coming out of my stomach I could still feel the pain if I close my eyes tight enough It was bright enough I didn't cry enough I thought about it every night, I didn't die, but what Snap in my f**in' brain It will never be the same I can say that I regret it just admitting to the pain Anyway, where am I going with this story I'm just venting Tend to get carried away in these theraputical sentences Remember this When I die I hated breathing You can call me masochistic and insane but I prefer bleeding And what I'm needing is some wings to fly away Or a time machine to get me the f** away from today Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me Lord there's nothing left of me