Rêverie - DEAR REVERIE, lyrics

It's March 23rd and that means it's been 5 days since I last gave into the addiction It's a problem that I face and I wish I could say that this was fiction, but conflict(ion) I be facing, heart is racing, get impatient, so sick and tired of this slave sh** popping all my profit Seems impossible to stop it and can't no feeling top it Remember the last time? You swore it was “the last time” Said that a few time last year. You're gonna end up “flat line” That spine is looking kinda slender. Don't try to defend (her) You've been sober for a while now, b**h, you must not remember How much you complained, how much you restrained How depressed, and stressed and vexed you became You even started lying to your friends, covering up the habits with excuses Built a fence, lost defense, lost yourself Let the “X” take over. What's next? You gonna go back to “all-nighters?” Lose your job and respect? You gotta be checked so I'm asking you to remember those days When you couldn't go to sleep and couldn't get out of the maze In a daze, in a depth, very dangerous to step Back into the same predicament Last time you were crying, saying you're “sick of this” Now you're thinking of thizzing, sh** What the f** is wrong with you? This sh** does not belong in you I even wrote this song for you, to help you to be strong So fu just put the pills back in the baggy I'm not asking, I'm demanding You don't really wanna do this. Just stop and think about it Tomorrow you're gonna be sorry Don't relapse, you'll collapse and then ask how this cracked Just let it pa** Don't disappoint me like that (Reverie) you don't really wanna do this. Just stop and think about it Tomorrow you're gonna be sorry Don't relapse, you'll collapse and then ask how this cracked Just let it pa** Don't disappoint me like that It wasn't a possibility. I didn't wanna listen to you giving me Those words ‘cuz they were so true And now it's too late, I'm looking down at you and I have this hate Why the f** didn't I listen to you when you tried to warn me Not to go back to the habits? I've seen it happen before me But then for me to experience what I “only hear in stories” So embarra**ing that this is how it ended. No adoring Anybody who loses their life to any kind of substance Shaking their heads in disappointment and the chills come as they bump this “I knew it was gonna happen” “I told her she needed help” Now the kids that listened to me really know just how it felt Too good to be true, ‘cuz look at where I'm currently sitting In destiny's waiting room. Don't think I'll ever be forgiven Never living like you should be and by then it's too late To switch up all the deadly habits that are f**ing with your fate I demonstrate why you should hesitate Said that I would never wait Now this purgatory proved my glory hella fake Celebrate your sobriety. Cuz temptation was blinding me And now head to your local cemetery's where you're finding me Sorry to disappoint all my friends, and fans and family I didn't think it was gonna happen to me, I can't believe it had to be So sad to see this talent put to waste I had so many dreams and now I'll never get to chase After many and I had plenty. Pick up habits like they're pennies And the only think that gets you is a gla** that's half empty So if I could tell you something, the last think that I would say Is, “f** the past, live for the present and prepare for future days” You don't really wanna do this. Just stop and think about it Tomorrow you're gonna be sorry Don't relapse, you'll collapse and then ask how this cracked Just let it pa** Don't disappoint me like that (Reverie) you don't really wanna do this. Just stop and think about it Tomorrow you're gonna be sorry Don't relapse, you'll collapse and then ask how this cracked Just let it pa** Don't disappoint me like that