Regzzo - Conception lyrics

[Verse 1: Regzzo] I feel like I'm a born sinner Everyday I'm wakin' up and livin' life like it's a f**in' dinner And I don't even eat it I just sit and ponder Like a philosopher I seek the knowledge I've not learned I swear I'm on my f**in' grind And now I'm starting to believe all of my f**in' lies I'm makin' money off of sh** that I got pressured to try And now the jokes on you, cause I cut all of our ties You find it hard to believe that I've built a fanbase All from nothing but my blood, sweat and tears runnin' down my face But I did it all for you, and now I'm doing it for me while saying f** you too You feel my pa**ion through these lyrics, feel the tension through my voice Work so hard I swear to god I might never feel joy But I do this for the fans, for the people who believe in me You never know your destiny until you reach the ending And so I write this verse in memory of everything I cherish deeply, holding back the tears, no weeping I get messages anonymous from people holding promises that they'll become somebody all because my verse inspired it And f** it I'll never be what I want to be so I'll just keep on doin' me, the stress lives for eternity, but maybe if I don't trip Over the little things and start to see the world for what it's really meant to be Like it or not, it's who I am Don't define me by my wisdom, just define me by my plan I'm just trynna chase my dream and I swear people wanna see me fail Maybe if I make it everyone will walk my trail And I don't even know if Imma see my dad again but I just couldn't move back in, I had to leave before I made things worse than they've already been With all the alcohol and d** and constant searching for who I am It's been a long journey But it's only beginning and honestly the thought of failing scares me but I keep on heading to the top Cause even if I fail I'll still remember what it took to bring me down, still depressed but never frown, I Slowly start to reminisce About the times when I was bullied and I couldn't take it The only person I could talk to about all of my problems was my grandma now she's gone and it still f**s with me, I notice that she's looking down on top of me I see her everywhere from street signs, to sweet dreams, from these lines, to blue seas, to everything that makes me happy She f**in' raised me now I'm supposed to just be calm and happy? But on the brighter side I guess that sh** was mean to be Cause she's the reason that I'm writing all this poetry And to this day I never thought it'd be a part of me You never know your destiny until you reach the ending