To be honest, the truth is I'm afraid I fear losing the only thing I've ever held so close The fact is you never cared Half as much for me as I did for you No matter what you say You're filling your head with lies Telling yourself you'll be here When you're not anywhere to be found How can you just close your eyes And pretend I'm a ghost When I am haunted by the thought of you To be honest, I wish I was like you I wish I could forget these memories Did you not see me falling down Into endless shades of grey You watched without taking a step I just wish you could disappear But maybe I'm the one who turns to smoke Maybe this is my destiny Maybe this is my destiny