Reflections (rock) - Sadist lyrics

I never knew You were more than a voice that made its home inside my head Now I'm carving scars into my arms To remember what it feels like to feel anything That was only the start My addiction to tearing myself apart I'm in love with hating myself Its the only real thing I've ever felt I hold a gun to the head of God Please tell me where i went wrong Every single step I take Leads me right back to the same mistakes I've been here before But i adore the pain keep coming back for more I bleed just to see If there's anything left inside of me We are a perfect fit A sadist and a masochist I've never been good enough I am never good enough