Redemption - The Fullness Of Time lyrics

[I. Rage:] Struck down by the persons that I trusted Robbed of dignity and left for dead I can feel unmeasurable anger building in me Emptiness and rage begin to burn inside my head Once I was a person withoug malice Once my heart bled red instead of black Friends with one hand held behind their backs carried knives Didn't see the blades 'till tehy were buried in my back Sleep with one eye open Knowing that I'm watching you Listen for my footsteps on every darkened street Like a call for help unanswered You can scream but no one hears your voice No one there to save you As I take my just revenge I can hear your laughter I can see you think you've won But I don't know how you live With no remorse for waht you have done You claimed you were my friend All the while you planned to murder me You claimed that I imagined all the things you'd done to me You'll pay for being so destructive Youll beg for compa**ion But I've nothing left to give [II. Despair:] Left now Alone with your betrayal There's no way to feel secure Anymore Broken Crushed in soul and spirit With no way to set things right again Gone You have stolen everything I ever had And I'm left with nothing more than pain And I know I'll never trust the way taht I once did You have taken all my dreams And turned them to ashes in my mouth Starving Searching for some comfort Left to choke on my despair Blinded My faith and friendship shattered And my life beyond repair [III. Release:] Lying here surrounded By the pieces of my life Would it all be easier If I lay be down to die Dreams piled high On the back of this broken man Is this all? Born to fall? Or to rise again? So much pain and disillusionment Everything I once felt sure about We're all lost if we don't know It's all a game that we are playing The motions of all our counterparts A piece of sinsiter scheme The puppet that's broken has reason to smile They can no longer force him to dance on their strings Why shrug off the chains? If you wrap them about You'll be sunk to the bottom and drowning The clockwork behind their smiles Wound by hands that were made to harm Just release yourself Cause they can't rape the willing Or take waht you have if there's nothing else Tired of life and filled with despair And covered with blood from the crosses I bear But I'm still standing SHould I make myself crawl? Seems so counter to our nature Accepting with grace the things we can't change But when all's said and done and you're wronged and deceived Then it matters tha most what you choose to believe Should I fight against fate Or should I just lay down and die? The puppet that's broken has reason to smile But the strings can't control you if you walk away No more tears of disillusionment I'l be a puppet no longer The hands that I thought had held me THe clockwork behind their smiles They'll not have control over me I'll stand up and leave them behind Just release yourself Cause they can't rape the willing Or take what you have if there's nothing else Tired of life and filled with despair And covered with blood from the crosses I bear But I'm still standing Should I make myself crawl? Just release yourelf When you're wounded by no one else Rise above pain, most past my despair And put down the cross that I've made myself bear Now I'm still standing And I'm not gonna crawl [IV. Transcendence:] Now The smoke finally cleared And I can see the wreckagae of my past that lies about me Now It's all become so clear And I have learned the Truth behind the lies and seen the lies within the truth Everythng in context finally makes sense I see the paths I walked Some I paved myself Some where I went gladly Some against my will I Can leave behind the fear and doubt And cast aside the shackles and the chains Of flawed a**umptions I learned as a child I can't let them distract me So I'm Putting aside the memories Of the things I never had but thought I wnated Now My notions of what makes relationships have a new light I have gained an understanding No more false facades Covering my feelings Preventing a connection I've been spending my whole life pursuoing those who built this cell Lamenting all the hateful things that happened to me Never thought to look at how I might have played a part in who I am Or what it means to lose the game before it starts Now I know that I cannot turn back and change the past And that the only choice to save myself Is changing what I carry from it Everything I did to myself Everything that's been done to me I'll turn my back on that and walk away And left with only me At last I see the answer and what I need to be Letting go I destroy my shell Embrace my heart And free myself The point of the search, may not be the answer The value of a want, is not always a need Still I stand, I'm not going to crawl Now I know, I've got to believe Once I was a person without malice Once my heart bled red instead of black Openness and introspection now sho me the way To reclaim all I've lost and take it back You may have taken everything I ever had But you cannot take my future Just release yourself All I was and All that I'll ever be Finally are integrated And I am whole again Now I know the reason for the suffering I'm a better person for having known the pain A better person having overcome the pain