REAMS - Breathing lyrics

Verse 1: Try look for the positives All I see is a crook breakin' promises Colourless Everywhere that I look and go Is it obvious? I don't really wanna know See myself in the mirror, and I hate it Liquor in my mouth, man, I really gotta change it Who on earth is this person I am now? I just wanna close up the curtains and blackout I cannot go any further, a man down Deep in the dumps, just blurred in the background Rain clouds hang close like a bad smell Way too much, tryna cope in this mad house Lips to the tip of the bottle Don't waste one drip, yo quick, where the funnel? Too right, had a bit of a night, ya see? Don't know where to stop, now I'm feelin' anxiety Gotta get a grip, but I'm slippin', my arms are weak Caught up in the mix, it's a little bit hard to breathe. *damn* If I ain't sippin' on lager drinks, heart starts racin' People will laugh at me Every part of me achin', burnin' Won't stop comin' til I taste some bourbon Wasted, slurrin' To mates I'm a burden Locked up in chains Court cases lurkin' How the f** did it come to this? I wish that I could travel back to when I was just a kid There was no worries in the world Never worried bout a girl Now everything's a problem Man, I'm fallin' into hell Chorus: I'm just so sick of the life that I am leadin' Coz every single day just feels like I'm not breathin' And even if I change my ways today Would I remain the same or would I fade away? [x2] Verse 2: This ain't life, this is more like a d**h trap More like a war, pure morbid A jet black Get back They told me to get back Always ignorin' the warnings of red flags Stress-packed Exhausted, like jet lag Sad thoughts form like the spawn of a pet rat Neck snaps Horns on my head Life upside down like the corpse of a dead crab Regrets stacked Attracted to bad vibes Mood flat as happiness collapse like a landslide Hands tied Dracula vampire Swoop down, attackin' from the back like a magpie Cloud nine? nah, trash like a crash site Pressure gettin' right up in my face like a sandfly Damn, tired, tryna wait, here on stand by For the day I make my escape and I flatline Capsize in the middle of the ocean Clingin' onto little bits of paddle that are floatin' Soul broken, feelin' no emotion Swiggin' on a bottle full of whiskey til I'm frozen Lonesome But nobody even cares Nobody's even there to try and pull me from the wreck Deserted Way beyond tryin', I'm over this Work my whole life and have nothin' to show for it f** that There's gotta be another way Gotta be a time when I don't gotta see the colour grey I'm afraid of this person that I am Feels like only yesterday the world was in my hands It's been so long since I've had a bit of joy Got my wits screwed off Yo I cannot see the point Of rejoinin' this earth when it treats me so ugly Pushed to the dirt coz he thinks he's above me Chorus: I'm just so sick of the life that I am leadin' Coz every single day just feels like I'm not breathin' And even if I change my ways today Would I remain the same or would I fade away? Bridge: So many bad things in this world Too many wounds that will not heal. [x4] Chorus [x2]